Focus

When I started this blog, it wasn't meant for me to vent my frustrations... not for me to indulge in self pity. There was a higher purpose that I had managed to lose.


This blog, these words, are meant to explore the true nature of man.

It's a daunting task, I know, but it is something that I spend all my time thinking about... and probably always will.



There are questions that need to be answered- questions that cannot be answered by a single mind. What is Good? What is Evil? Is it all relative- is it a set of values ingrained into us by society, or is it something more innate... something that can be explained by logic, something that most- if not all- human beings understand.



The internet- I thought, was an outlet for what we really are. After all, it is here that our worst sides become most visible. We fear nothing, our anonymity makes us invulnerable, no longer bound by the laws of society and free to express hate, intolerance, ignorance, anger.



What are we really? Are we kind, or cruel? Good, or Evil?

Are we noble?

Are we savage?

We are all selfish, but is a selfish person incapable of selflessness?

I find myself having become a subject of my own analysis. I wanted to be an observer, to stay back and watch something grow, ended up wanting to care- to help, but there is a fine line between a voyeur and an observer. Perhaps the only difference is partiality, when you become involved- you have no right to continue.

My intentions were pure (or were they-? I wonder. Will they stand up to a cold, logical analysis?)

What ended up unravelling, however, was most certainly... not.

There is something that I've always believed in, although it may be ironic for someone who claims to be a writer and a thinker. Words are cheap. What you do is what really matters. I always extended this into the realm of beliefs and ideals as well.

What use are noble intentions when you are unintentionally screwing up the world? Organised religion comes to mind.

It applies to me as well... except, my reasons were selfish as well.

Trying to do something good for selfish reasons.
Is that a good thing- because the result is all that matters?
Trying to do something good for selfish reasons and messing up and ending up doing something wrong is DEFINITELY not.

How do we live life, when the lines are blurred so? Human beings are not so much complex as... confused. Unable to have faith in themselves or in others. It's funny that we choose to have a 'God' to place our trust in, when we dare not trust ourselves.

People can be capable of great empathy to absolute strangers, as long as they have something to relate to.
Equally, they can cause incredible harm over trivial differences...

Can you choose what to be, or must you be content with what you are?
We shall see.